December 7, 2007
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so far the highlight of my day has been logging into my bank account and realizing i had more money than i thought.
until i saw that my rent check had been returned. that was awesome. i was really upset when i first saw it but i’ve gotten over it. it’s not that i don’t have the money it’s just the inconvenience that it causes me. i don’t know if the management company will try to cash it again, if they do, it will go through but if they simply return it to me i have to go get a cashier’s check for rent plus a late fee and a returned check fee. so, if that is the case, my rent will be very expensive this month. i haven’t overdrafted my account or bounced a check in forever — of course it has to happen in december. all bad things happen to you around the holidays. if i was a very paranoid person, from halloween to epiphany, i would never leave my house. but then it would probably get struck by lightning and burn down. go figure.
i guess it never pays to be afraid of your own shadow.
if i could have anything at all for christmas, i would get a hybrid vehicle. we only have one car as it is, so another one would be nice, one that’s a little bigger but isn’t a land barge. i would go for either the camry hybrid or the malibu. i think the camry actually gets better mileage but the malibu has on-star. either way, it’s still completely hypothetical.
i am, however, going to buy a ticket for the georgia lottery. odds of winning are 1 in 125,000 and i feel like i’ve been so unlucky lately that it’s my time for once. well, knock on wood–i don’t want to jinx myself!
for the last eighteen months, i have been a full-time mom for my daughter. there absolutely have been ups and downs but i have enjoyed every minute of it. now, however, it is time for me to leave the home and either get a job or go back to school. i think that my husband and i are going to sign a six-month lease meaning we wouldn’t be leaving here until the end of august and if we could go live with my parents in toronto, i would go back to school over getting a job. in the long run, i know i could make more money with a degree than working full-time without one.
the hard part about life-changing decisions is not actually the decisions themselves but the waiting and the pondering and the should-i-shouldn’t-i stage of the process.
it isn’t growing up that’s the problem.
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RE: “the hard part about life-changing decisions is not actually the decisions themselves but the waiting and the pondering and the should-i-shouldn’t-i stage of the process.”
The hard part for me has been when the plans don’t work out like I think they should… I’m such a planner.. so when the plans get altered (without my seal of approval) I start to freak out a bit sometimes. I hate change, in general.
If you have to go back to work, i hope it’s a family friendly company, so you can still participate with your daughter like you want to, and also a job that you can enjoy so it doesn’t feel mundane or that you’re just doing it to make ends meet… I like a job that makes a difference or that I have a passion for. Not that you asked… haha
awh…thanks for all the nice kinda words! it means so much to me! :]