October 14, 2007

• so, it’s been a while since i’ve updated.  i guess you could say there is a lot going on.  and was, and still will be.

  
  

  

  
  

  i love this little girl like crazy.  she’s 16 months old tomorrow.  where does the time go?

  
  

  

  
  

  there are only five more months left on our lease.  we can’t stay here, but have no idea where to go.  i feel like moving here was a good thing and a bad thing all rolled into one.  moving cross country was amazing, but packing up our apartment into a 16 foot truck and hauling it 2000 miles was not fun.  and now, we’re thinking about doing it again.  only, probably about 1200 miles.

  
  

  

  
  

  we’re thinking about moving to buffalo.  well, amherst.  my parents live outside of toronto so it’s about as close as we can live to them without moving to canada.  which, i’ve found, can be extremely difficult.  i know nothing of snow.  and this is probably one of the biggest obstacles concerning the move to buffalo.  but another is that housing is one of a few things such as a)crap, b)affordable but really frickin old, or c)new, beautiful, and frickin expensive.  i hate how prohibitive the lack of money is.  i never realized that money really does make the world go round, well, i suppose that was because back then, i actually had some.

  
  

  

  
  

  but on a happier note, i just bought this game for my ds that i’ve been addicted to ever since i downloaded it on my blackberry.  which was, two days ago.  cake mania!  i just can’t stop.  and it was clinique bonus time at macy’s.  so i totally scored in that department.  it’s been so long since i’ve spent my money on superficial things like hair and makeup.  i totally miss it.  but i love the time i spend spoiling my daughter rotten.  her laugh is probably one of the best sounds in the world.

  
  

  

  
  

  about two months after i had georgia, my ob/gyn gave me a prescription for birth control, which i never filled.  i meant to, but never got around to it.  so for a year after, every month i thought i was pregnant again.  scared out of my mind about it, but a little hopeful too.  but now, i’ve been on ortho tri-cyclen lo for two months now, and ugh, i’d rather be pregnant, cause at least i’d get something out of it.  what i mean is that the pill makes me nauseous, hormonal, tired, and then gives me cravings.  but those are supposed to be over with now.  the only thing is that now i’ve safeguarded myself against getting pregnant, it’s something i’d really like to do again.  and probably sooner rather than later.

  
  

  that’s how it goes i guess.  maybe it’s the hormones talking.  or the fact that my little girl isn’t a baby anymore, combined with the fact that my cousin is newly pregnant.  and i’m so excited!  how i wish i lived back home, i had so wanted someone close to my age that had gone through or was going through the same things as me.  it’s all well and good to have advice from your parents but sometimes it’s just better to have a friend.

  
  

  tomorrow night, my husband, my gigi, and myself are boarding a plane headed for phoenix.  and i miss my hometown so much that i’m trying not to be overly excited because i know how i’ll feel when i leave it again.  i had never wanted to leave a place more than i wanted to be out of the valley, but now it’s all i want.  even i can’t quite understand just how much i love my home.

  
  

  well, the spell check refuses to work, so please pardon my mistakes.  i have the attention span of well, my sixteen-month old.

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